Life has never been so complicated

I sit and wonder why my life has become so complicated, people have turn against me (I will not say any names), these are all rhetorical questions, which means I'm not looking for any answers. I just cant imagine this ever happening, especially to me. What is going on? What did I do to diserve this?

If only you felt my pain, if only you knew what I go through. I speak these emotional loaded words to myself, I vent through my writings.

Maybe it's best if I get away, from all the negative energy. I try my hardest to stay positive, I really do. I know it's not to noticeable, but I do try my hardest.

I need a constant support system. When I say constant I mean a support system that doesn't quit.

I am my own support system, maybe I should have a back up.

Then again maybe not.